"The Power Greater Than Love"
There Is A Power Far Greater Than Love
Survival
It Keeps Me Alive In Desperate Hours
Love Will Forsake You
It Will Break You and Destroy You
In The End, You are All You Have
Hold On To Your Heart
Don't Let Anybody Have It
You are Safe When You Are Alone
Live Your Life
Stay Alive
Survive
Survival Is Far Greater Than Love
Just Being Alive Is A Beautiful Thing
It Keeps Me Alive When Nothing Else Does
Nobody Can Really Break Your Heart
If You Hold On To Who You Really Are
Deep Inside
There Is A Beautiful Thing About an Oak Tree Standing Tall
Or A Squirrel Gathering Up Nuts
There Is Beauty In The Fish That Swim The Sea
And The Homeless People Foraging For Food
In The End All You Have Is Yourself
Love Who You Are and You'll Be Okay
Hearts Don't Break Unless They Are Broken
To Thine Own Self Be True
Break Free Of The Cruel World
Carry Yourself Alone
If You Can Become Perfectly Independent
You Will Find Your Way
You Must Walk Alone To Be Free
Bondage Is The Only Thing That Others Will Offer You
Be Independent and Free
Survive
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"The Eclipse"
The Apocalypse Came This Year
The Moon Darkened The Sun
Then All Around Was Eerie Silence
As Darkness Covered The Earth
It Had Been Dark For About Five Minutes When
I Bowed My Head And Prayed
I Prayed For The Sun To Be Restored
I Closed My Eyes and Prayed
There Were Angels Flying Around
People Thought They Were Hugs Birds
My Husband Was Babbling On and On
About This and That In The Darkness
It Was A Maddening Moment
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Helplessness"
I Cried Today for a long time
It was the easiest thing to do
I finally composed myself
I promised myself everything would be okay
We were standing In the bathroom
We looked at each other helplessly
With the same look on our faces
Before we could say anything
We both smiled at each other
and then we burst out laughing
Just innocent laughter like little bells
We Were happy then and walked away
from all the troubles we can't explain
We shrugged and left together
It was all we could take
It was all we could do
Helplessness
In Jesus' Name
Amen

"Christmas Tears"
My Grandfather Was Sad On Christmas Day
I Asked Him Why he had been crying
He Said He'd Gotten No Gifts That Year
He Looked Like He had a broken heart
I Smiled and said without sadness
That I Hadn't Gotten Any Gifts Either
The Tears Shed On Christmas are Pure and Sweet
And They Fall Easily For Those Accustomed To Weep
There Is So Much To Want To Have It Makes Me Cry
The Tears Fall Hard and fast
Like newfallen snow, shallow and easy are Christmas tears
You Cry Haphazard while muttering to yourself
I hold you securely in my arms
If there were enough of everything there would be no want
no want for love no want for care
but we were rich this Christmas Day
and being alone was as sweet as any other way
I found myself in the easy down chair
If I didn't love you I would not be alive
But as it is I'll just sit here and sing
Time passing by like rain on a windshield
Time marches on and on and on
One cannot reverse what has come to pass
It's like sleet all melted and transient
There is non that can fathom
and many who have failed
that many have gone mad in seeking it
only to find their reflections in the stars
or on the wall looking a little forlorn
like my grandfather crying bcause his life was too hard
and suddenly I find I am crying too
I'll cry you come loose fickle Christmas Tears
You're jumping about like a springfallen lamb
I pause here to give you a tender kiss
your folley never ceases to amaze me
the joy of christmas is tied in with the irreversability of time
That once gone is something lost forever
If you could get it back the world would sing
and cry happy tears, but for now
I think I'll just sit here and think about it
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"A Grim Time"
This is a Grim Time In History
There Are Very Few Christmas Trees
And A Whole Lot Of Accusations of Witchcraft
People aren't buying one another Christmas gifts
They are fighting and surrounding the weaker ones
People are afraid There are hardly any children
Lock up your children and hide them far away
The grownups have flown out of control
All madness converges in an eclipse here
at this point the end times seems to be at hand
there are fewer kindnesses every day
and more and more fights
people walk up to each other and tell them what they think
even if it means being cruel and barbaric
people smell and taste blood and pain
they surround the injured in packs and attack
children don't stand a chance anymore
I find myself just wanting to go home
but I don't have anywhere to go but here
my home is attacked by an unseen foe
and there is always something to be done
sometimes Archangel Gabriel and I are walled up here
We look at one another and say a quiet prayer
for Christmas and for the Children
I pray with a sadness that makes me cry
I turn the other cheek time and time again
fortitude stands like a stone tower in the ocean surf
though the waves beat and break a million times
they will never break the stone tower
and at the top of this tower is a guiding light
weakly but strongly guiding the lost onward
guiding us back home to our beds
so if you are feeling lost then you can look here
and find the way back home
there is chaos in the streets more bad than wild
and bad things are going on all around this home
and I'm saying a prayer to stay O.K.
no matter what may come
This Is A Grim Time In History
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Where Does God Go"
Where Does God Go When The Money Runs Up
Where Does He Go When People Have No Way Out
Where Is He When We Realize that We A Really Trapped
Like Prisoners In A Jail of Dubious Invention
Although We Remain Unconvicted and Unsentenced
We Remain Trapped In A Poverty Inescapable
They Laughed At my and Sadly Shook Their Heads
When I told them I wanted A Piece of the Pie
They Closed Up Their Windows and Locked Their Doors
My Husband Was So Awfully Frightened
They Put The Goods Away and Denied Our Access
Even Though We Hadn't Broken The Law
We Came To Realize We Were Trapped and Imprisoned
And Buried Alive In A Lot of Beaurocracy
Maybe We Should Give Up, I think to myself
Maybe There is no hope at all for us
I weep for a country whose citizens feel so trapped
I pray for its leaders and I pray for their captors
Not so long ago this country was based on Freedom
Freedom Rang Out From Every rooftop and Doorstep
Now Freedom is like the little spiders that were killed
It simply is rare and hard to acheive
Freedom costs thirty dollars or more right now
and I am tempted to relinquish my hopes and obey
I didn't want to die and inherit my joys in heaven
but that is looking like what I am facing
If I loved my husband any more I would not be real
and Jesus comforts me in my solitude and pain
He tells me to take care of Theodore come what may
and I believe that I can
Freedom is no longer American it is no longer real
somewhere out there there may be a free country
but this country is not free at all
It isn't Free
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Needs"
When people are injured in the heart
They need time to heal
They need to rest and get better
and many need to get better all their lives
they need good food and candy and coke
they need sleep and happiness to stay busy
they need things they can learn to heal with
like perfume and lotion and lozenges and cream
they need peace and freedom and time to think
In a way we are all injured in the heart
We all dearly need to get better
There are things that need to get done each day
but one person shouldn't have to be another person's servant
we should give of our gifts and excess and talents
if we pool our resources and abilities together
then everyone could contribute and needs would be filled
enough is enough and more is more
the bounty of God is enough for the life to thrive
Jesus taught us the parable of the laborers in the Vineyard
how every worker recieved equal pay
 for doing various different levels of labor
they were upset by this and Jesus smiled and said,
This is what was agreed, and gave them all the same
It was a penny, not too much and not too little
but a sane amount that people could all feed their children with
some fat children and some hungry children is worse
than a bunch of well-fed children
and work is about feeding one's children
excess is a dearly unhappy thing
we much share with others who have less
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Too Thin"
I Thought My Husband Was Too Thin
The First Time We Went Out Together
I Did not Imagine that the reason he was thin
Was Because He Was Starving To Death
He Was Wearing A Faded Black TShirt
It Looked Like a Robe Around His Frail Body
I Didn't Realize It Was The Only Shirt He Had
And That It Wasn't Enough to keep out the cold
I thought My Husband Was Strange When He Ate
I Didn't Imagine He Was Hungry as Could Be
If Only I Had Bought that meal we first shared
He looked up at me with such loyalty and devotion
I said a Prayer and kissed him, then kissed him again
If only I had seen the reason he was so kind
Was because he had a beautiful heart
If Only I had taken him home and held him
I am so very glad that I did
If Only I had some money to buy him the world
I cry with joy when I see him happy
It really is my life's goal to care for him
and miss him dearly when he is away
If I could I'd take in someone else
and take in several and take in them all
I have a dream of opening a permanent shelter
a shelter for anyone with nowhere to go
they could watch tv all day and hang out
they wouldn't have to go anywhere
there would be food and rooms like an old hotel
if I ever get ahold of some money
I will start the shelter my heart wants to build
If I ever get on top of this poverty
and I promise myself that someday I will
I will find the legal papers for people like me
and find places for them to work
I will start businesses if I have to
and people like me and Theodore
will have somewhere to go and to stay
I wish I could buy a little motel
or arrange a way to pay the rent for people
Every day this dream grows within me
The dream of opening a Charity someday
As I fight my own struggles with being hungry
I wonder if God hears my prayers about this
I believe If I continue praying The doors will open
I have my whole life ahead of me and this is my dream
I hope to live to a day when people have somewhere to go
I am tired of crying for the future
I Thought my husband was too thin
The first time we went out together
I didn't realize he was in deadly danger
Oh Lord, I was so wrong!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Why"
There was a boy, he made me cry
he had beautiful black hair and a beard
He was sitting barefoot on the subway floor
drawing in a sketchbook the architecture of the building
someone came by and offered him a meal
he didn't look up and said he was feeling kind of sick
he was happy even though it was cold
and there was nowhere to go It made me cry
that there are artists out on the street
just drawing because there is no answer for them
dying for the art you see it makes me cry
to think mow many have to suffer to work
he was working away with nowhere to go
and the beautiful thing was, he was happy
he took the meal and thanked them and smiled
Why does God Allow This To Happen
In Jesus' Name
Amen

We Get By With Very Little, surviving with what resources are given to us.  Food and shelter are pretty much it.  We Survive.  There are so many people who don't have what we have, and we are deeply grateful to God.  If we did not have these things, we would not be alive today. 
Being poor is painful.  It's painful for obvious reasons.  There isn't enough material goodness to be happy.  The children are somatic and tired and without hope.  We feel hopeless like noone is looking out for us.  That He has let us down.  We pray all the same.
When we pray to the Lord, He hears us and He answers us.  You cannot help but feel that God is providing the things one needs to be O.K.  That He cares and we feel that what is given to us comes from the bounty of God's hands.  God is generous and kind, and He give us things because He loves us.  Because There is still a reason we are alive.  He doesn't love the rich more than the poor, in fact it is quite the opposite to me, yet God provides for the littlest creatures, from ants in the ground to dandelions, to buisinessmen and to pets.  All living things are provided for.  Even the homeless seem to be calm because they seem to be in good hands of God.  I weep when it is cold or rainy because I know how much it hurts to be out there in the cold.  Do people die when there is no shelter?  I have never seen this happen, but must assume it to be true.  We are not without a home.  We are grateful for that which we do have.  Some madness of heartlessness of the world to leave hungry individuals out in the cold.  I think the cruelest thing people could ever do, is to deny one another shelter or food.
If you see someone without a home, take them in.  God sends us as earth-angels to do his daily work.  In its way, we are the Hands of the Lord.  It is up to each person to take care of one another; He cannot do it without us.
It seems there will always be faith on the Earth.  Faith seems to dwindle in this time.  Christmas seems to lack luster this year.  I wish I had someone to take care of, someone cold and hungry I could give a bed to.  It would fill my life with purpose and joy.  I do.
I do have someone to  take care of; his name is Theodore.  He fills my life with joy and it is my own meaning to fill his life with happiness.  If I do one thing right for the rest of my life, let me take care of him.  Food and Shelter are two things he will need his whole life.  I wish all people could have what he has.  I cry when it is cold and dark because I don't want anybody to be stuck out there alone. 
I know that some people are out in the cold this year.  I know that many won't have Gifts this Christmas.  It makes me cry.  There is lack of love and then there is lack of resources.  Theodore and I are so rich in love.  God provides the resources we need to survive.  Our hearts combine with our home to fill the night with a cheeriness and a warmth that makes the season bright.  He comes home at night and I cook him up a delicious meal.  He lays in bed and relaxes.  I am grateful to god that he has these things.  My poor boy. 
I went looking for a job but have found that identification papers such as a Social Security Card and a Birth Certificate are required in order to apply for a Driver's License.  These things require a trip to the government offices and hospital, and money to pay the neccessary fees.  I deeply feel that people should not have to pay money to obtain their birth certificate. Thirty dollars is a fortune.  I feel that the reason there are so many Homeless Americans is because they don't have the money or transportation to apply for their identity papers, and therefore can't get the driver's license requiered to work a job.  So They get stuck, and they can't figure out how to get out from under a mountainload of paperwork.  These laws should be deeply amended.  We have DNA tests and face recognition software, so why can't people get through to applying for work without these debilitating papers?
I myself am struggling with these problems and haven't yet found a solution because I cannot afford the fees to get them.  It feels hopeless.  It seems that one must Have Money in order to Make Money.
If the laws in America would abate regarding these fees and requirements, then there would be a lot fewer homeless people wandering around.  There would be alot less innocent people freezing to death and a lot more employment.  I hope to live to see the day a change comes about.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen